A changed person ? A new personality ? A new life ? Nah, I see the shadow of my past struggling to break free. There's nothing to hide about my past. I am not the person you guys know now. I used to be so slack, so rebellious, so.. carefree will be the word.

Everything was just about pleasing myself back then. Skipping school would be the best example. Whenever i don't feel like attending school, i'll just go somewhere else. Perhaps to catch a movie with a frd from outside, swim, or just slack around like nobody business. I live my life for myself, and only myself.

And then when problems came, i'll do all sorts of things like smkin, drinkin etc. Yea, i was one of those you will never ever wanted to be friend with.

And now this surge of feeling is trying to overcome me. Yes, it may be true that i am truly free back then. One of my frd once told me this : This is all part of the growing process. At some instance, i just wish that the clock would stop ticking. Imagine time stopping at the moment when you were the happiest person on earth.. Pardon me, it's time to get back to reality.

You shall not overcome me. I will fight, i may falter, but i cannot fail..

Yours, Ray..11:59 PM