I guess i'm really starting to grow up already. I realise through this few months in poly till a few days ago, i've learnt a lot.

First of all, i've learnt how harsh reality can be. How tough life can be. But still you gotta move on with it. No matter how fcuk up you feel, you still need to get over with it.

And then a few days ago, someone close reminded me again. She reminded me about not letting my history to repeat itself. I was a little positive at the beginning and thought nothing of it. But after a little more thoughts and after somethings, i feel that partly what she said is right. In the sense that at times i get a little over.

Perhaps it is through this lessons, through this period of time that i realise a change is needed. Nah, i aint thinking too much.

There's much more to say, but yea, shall not blog much more about it. Today is a step towards changing, a step towards a new life, let's just hope i'll persevere through it and not give in to my old character once again..

Yours, Ray..3:12 AM